Currently my life is a bit of a whirlwind; I am in my final undergraduate year at the University of Cape Town, I am writing a mini thesis on the influence of alchemy in Greek Mythology (this is consuming the majority of my time as I have a mountain of books I need to read, as well as hundreds of academic papers), I am busy planning a backpacking trip around Eastern Europe for June, and I am trying to get through a horrifically ambitious list of 52 books that I decided I should read this year as my New Years Resolution. Pretty hectic, right?
Well as I'm sure you can guess I am desperately in need of inspiration. It is the only thing that will keep me going, and not want to give up. Today has been a really inspiring day. I've realised that I am secretly considering getting my PhD in Classical Studies instead of Law, I stumbled upon the most beautiful blog, that I am now totally and completely in love with, and I managed to take a moment to stop and smell the roses. I'm finally stopping and thinking about what actually inspires me.
What do I want to do in life? I want to be a writer - I want to be able to move a person by painting the most perfect image in their minds, I want to bring a crowd to its feet and to make the skies pour with water, and I want to bring someone a fraction of the joy that the countless writers I've read have brought me. That inspires me. The idea that everything is at my fingertips, that if I can convey what the swirls and ebbs of colours inside me are saying, and write them into the pages of my words, then I can achieve my dreams. The problem I've found is not knowing what your dream is, but remembering that you have one. It is so easy to get caught up in life's challenges that the end goal, the bigger picture often slips from consciousness. And don't get me wrong, enjoying the 'now' is vital, but don't get lost in it either.
One of my biggest realisations is that not every step of your life is going to be with your group of friends, or in your comfort zone. Often to get to where you want to be you have to let go, and go where you need to go. It becomes tricky when you know that you have to leave people behind, and this is where inspiration really helps me get through the day - it enables me to remember why I had to make the tough decisions in the first place.
So why am I actually writing all this? I need to remind myself of where I am going, and the most magnificent blog, Searching For Tomorrow managed to remind me to inspire myself. Reading something as poetically beautiful as their blog manages to elevate me to that level of inspiration. I guess my message for this post would be to take a look at their blog, because I can guarantee that it will inspire you too.